Finally, after so many years of procrastination, doubts and unbelief, I am back at my keypads and laying my thoughts on text (That is if you do not count WhatsApp, Twitter and Discord of course, lol), my thoughts on personal development. Albeit, the last time I did this, I didn’t have a functional laptop and I wasn’t even sure it was something I ever wanted to do.
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, after leaving the love of my life for years, I have woken up every morning, – every passing hour, every read article and beautiful expression of thoughts seen, – and felt a sense of guilt deep down in my stomach (or wherever part of the body that judgmental pain stems from), one of abandoned responsibility and negligence.
Hello Excuses
Of course, I have my excuses and can point out a billion reasons (don’t take this one literally) why I couldn’t return to something I have always felt I would love to do. I have decided to do better and strike the keys on my small, black, dell latitude 7480 machine every 6:30am in the morning. I have also decided to shut out excuses whenever I speak or write, at the very least, cut it down to the barest minimum (it’s not going to be easy, you know the vibes right?).
If I want to win this battle on personal development and being a better all rounded individual, then a lot of things will have to go. I understand these things have to start slowly and more importantly, any action I wish to practice must be consistent.
Improving myself and being better has and will continue to be an integral part of me for as long I take in air through my nostrils and bring them out (forgive me, haha). I always want to make sure I am doing the right things to improve mentally, physically, financially, socially, emotionally, spiritually and any other adjective there is.
In all my efforts in achieving growth in personal development, only one thing has been consistent and improved so far, the ability to always leave the ideas only in my head. Drawing from James Clear’s atomic habits, I perceive the cue and get the cravings but then fail at my response.
For example, when I see a beautiful girl whom I would love to date, and I know I would have to look fitter and in shape to stand a chance ( or at least be more confident in myself). I would draw a plan, a proper routine (diet and otherwise) from the best possible videos on YouTube, from workout and health blogs in google and from observing the very fit people I see around, I really do put effort in finding ideas and patterns. Despite all of this, the battle has always been against myself.
The part of me, that has rained the most blows on me has been inconsistency. The injuries it has done on me are clearly visible, trust me.
Just one example, my sagged chests clearly shows that at one point or different points, I have worked out or tried to, for a period of days (or weeks max) and stopped for longer than I actually worked out (ouch! inconsistency, that hurts!) then picking up myself and hitting the gym and the cycle continues.
We are not here to judge anyone (including me ha!) but inconsistency has been my major stumbling block for many aspects of myself that I have dreamt of changing.
My writing looks shabby at the moment, well, that’s exactly what I expected when Ii woke up and opened my laptop. It will definitely improve over time, especially if I can win my fight against inconsistency and go on a prolonged run. ( I must win this one, watch out for the return of Pabz the wounded Tiger! Arrgh!).
Everyone, just as we have different faces, have reasons or challenges holding us from developing ourselves and not being better. Mine has always been inconsistency which has roots in procrastination and this is a real obstacle while tackling personal development. We all want the good things of life, but the price to pay is what distinguishes the ‘have’s and the ‘have not’s.
Well, having procrastinated this daily exercise of pinching my keypads for too long ( for years) and finally doing it today, this is a major win for me and I am definitely putting it there on the scoreboard for reference purposes.
ME 1 : 0 PROCASTINATION
After winning this particular battle, my eyes are on a familiar enemy and having lost so many times in his hands, the taste of revenge is all I can think of at the moment, and I am going all in for it.
“Prepare yourself Inconsistency. I will shame you and feed your flesh to the ravens”.
I plan to write everyday for the next 7 days straight, if I can do this without any excuses, then I have a point. You will be the judge of that.
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